I've been trying to figure out what exactly to do with my life, I know what I don't want but at the moment apart from seeing friends and playing games I really can't seem to motivate myself. I wish I could become a game tester or professional gamer, that would be sweet!

Thinking about what I'm doing in the future makes me feel uneasy, the only thing I can really do is work well with computers and design. I just don't think its enough, I mean people have already made twice as many and better designs than I have just half way through making one. I'm stuck so much at the moment I'm only half starting things and not getting through them, my lazyness is getting the better of me once again.

I think I need to stop playing games and just get my life and what I want to do sorted out, perhaps get better at drawing and not just make suggestions actually do it this time.



I'm feeling pretty much like a tool at the moment, I seem to have myself thinking if my profession I want is really that good when it probably is and I'm just an idiot. It just doesn't seem like enough at the moment to me.



I've discovered I suck at being a lone for too long, I then talk the next person I trust ear off. So beware SARAH! I think I offically freaked my sister out when she realised just how much I did for both her and Sam when they were younger. Oh well I can't wait til their 21 man do I have humilating stories to tell their friends about them :P


Well see ya this weekend is organising my life